I should be asleep

I couldn't go to sleep without writing some things out. My brain is full of thoughts and emotion, and I just can't shut down without getting it out. You see I fall in love with the wrong man, everytime. Eventually you'd think, Maddy you will eventually find the right guy. Not EVERY guy is a... Continue Reading →

This time

Every other relationship I've had, well nearly, when it ended I thought, "what is so wrong with me that they couldn't love me." But this time... This time I wonder what is so wrong with me that I keep getting guys that aren't good. Look the hobbit was amazing most of the time. Are there... Continue Reading →

Back From the Grave

That's right, I'm reactivating this biznatch. What's that. You've never been here before? Oh honey, go back, catch up and sit down, because I got a story to tell. Where have I been? Oh in Hell. Literally, where I work right now, the ac died. So it's hot. There's often methane leaks (smells like hell... Continue Reading →

love

She can fall in love with anyone.  No matter their scars, their pain, or their heart.  Give her words and a pen, and she'll construct a symphony, a soliloquy, a novel.  This woman's heart is ready and willing to love, it's her head that is the problem. She has been hurt, abused, battered, used, and... Continue Reading →

I am you

I see you. You wear your heart on your sleeve, and your emotions are bubbling just under the surface. When it's quiet, when you are alone, you remember. The good times, the best times, those happy times where everything was perfect. The way it felt to be in the arms of your former lover. I... Continue Reading →

About that Therapist…

Well there goes that great idea.  I was going to go see a therapist, because of ... reasons.  But alas!  I do not have 200 dollars to blow at the person who lets me do exactly what I do here, for free.  No I don't have anyone giving me 'advice' but I can hash out... Continue Reading →

Who am I anyway?

Am I the fun girl I think I am? I'm unequivocally a geek.  I love geeky things, board games, scifi, cons, I fall haplessly in love with fictional characters.  Does this make me who I am, or is it just one aspect? I am not a hick.  I may live in the south, but that... Continue Reading →

The Incredible Shrinking Me.

I'm now down 33.2 lbs.  That's a bit of an accomplishment.  I've went from 3x scrubs, to 1x.  That's a bigger accomplishment.  From a size 26 to a size 20. I'm still huge.  That will change. There is no question as to why I'm still single, I was so rotund that round looked up to... Continue Reading →

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