But I love you.

You are supposed to be here today. Meeting my family. Being as amazing as I thought you were. I loved you, I love you still, but you are a mere figment of my imagination. Or were you actually whom you seemed to be. A bad decision? A bad kid that entrapped you. Either way you... Continue Reading →

I’m not ok

I hope you know you'll pull through this. NO I actually don't know that I'll pull through this. My heart feels like it was dumped in a paper shredder. I'm sorry that I'm too much for you guys to handle, but apparently, I'm not as strong as you think I am. "it was only 5... Continue Reading →

It’s worse.

It's so much worse to be the one that ends it. At least it is when the reason comes out of the blue and you were completely caught unaware. When one day you are lying happily on bed, with your head on their chest dreaming of a future together, and then in a few words... Continue Reading →

No Car No Date

Someday will be better. I know this. Today is not that day. I should be lying in bed beside him, my head on his chest, both of us on reddit, or asleep with his gentle snores lulling me to sleep. And I fucking miss him. I keep double, triple, quadruple guessing myself. and I know... Continue Reading →

I am you

I see you. You wear your heart on your sleeve, and your emotions are bubbling just under the surface. When it's quiet, when you are alone, you remember. The good times, the best times, those happy times where everything was perfect. The way it felt to be in the arms of your former lover. I... Continue Reading →

About that Therapist…

Well there goes that great idea.  I was going to go see a therapist, because of ... reasons.  But alas!  I do not have 200 dollars to blow at the person who lets me do exactly what I do here, for free.  No I don't have anyone giving me 'advice' but I can hash out... Continue Reading →

AWork In Progress

I'm like the red roofed house that sits just outside the far window here at the clinic. The shutters aren't straight, the siding is hanging in odd ways, and the paint-- all the years of paint-- is stripping off in layers. It's not a bad house, it's quite lovely in it's own right, it's just... Continue Reading →

Take me To Church

If you haven't watched the video by this name by Hozier you are doing yourself a grave disservice.  If when you watch this video you do not immediately feel anger towards what you have seen, you are heartless.  How can you look at two people so in love and not see that love between them?... Continue Reading →

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