But I love you.

You are supposed to be here today. Meeting my family. Being as amazing as I thought you were. I loved you, I love you still, but you are a mere figment of my imagination. Or were you actually whom you seemed to be. A bad decision? A bad kid that entrapped you. Either way you... Continue Reading →

Queen of Isolation

Just wondering how long do I stay single? Do I do my normal years of aloneness this time? Do I sink into a pit of self loathing. I mean I know I'm not gorgeous but I just feel like maybe I should be getting back out there sooner than that. Is there a right time?... Continue Reading →

It’s worse.

It's so much worse to be the one that ends it. At least it is when the reason comes out of the blue and you were completely caught unaware. When one day you are lying happily on bed, with your head on their chest dreaming of a future together, and then in a few words... Continue Reading →

No Car No Date

Someday will be better. I know this. Today is not that day. I should be lying in bed beside him, my head on his chest, both of us on reddit, or asleep with his gentle snores lulling me to sleep. And I fucking miss him. I keep double, triple, quadruple guessing myself. and I know... Continue Reading →

MIDNIGHT THOUGHTS

Does he miss me, even a little?Did this week hurt as bad for him as it did for me?Would he ever have told me?Am I the largest idiot on the face of the planet?Will anyone ever actually love me?Did he love me, just not trust me to not run away? (In this defense, I did... Continue Reading →

Back From the Grave

That's right, I'm reactivating this biznatch. What's that. You've never been here before? Oh honey, go back, catch up and sit down, because I got a story to tell. Where have I been? Oh in Hell. Literally, where I work right now, the ac died. So it's hot. There's often methane leaks (smells like hell... Continue Reading →

A quickie before bed

I should have went to bed an hour ago, maybe two.  I should have been home at least that long ago.  But I wasn't.  I was with PC.  (yes he's still going to be prince charming for the time being, Mr. Awesome may change it later.. I don't know) Today started in panic, and fear.... Continue Reading →

No one told me.

No one told me how hard it would be to say no. I never knew anyone to fall that fast. 2 dates. The 22yo the Young Gun, took 2 dates, and he was gone forever.  Planning the future, making sure that he was not just in lust, but in love.  How does this make sense.... Continue Reading →

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